I am my own heaven and hell.

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Tomorrow will be the death of me.
  • Only one tab is open (Google Translate).
  •  Reading my I-can’t-understand-this-Spanish-handout-that-looks-like-I-tore-it-off-my-kiddie-books.
  • Studying for my Spanish test.

I IMAGINE MYSELF DOING ^ RIGHT NOW. IT’S JUST THAT SPANISH BORES ME TO DEATH. LORD, I KNOW I SHOULD DO ALL THE WORK BUT I KNOW YOU LOVE MEEEE. LOLOLOL. XOXO ♥


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And so I found myself guilty of committing this crime. Lol. I saw this paper as I walked my way to my Spanish class and decided to take a picture of it ‘cause I just can’t deny that I am soooo ready to leave school for the Christmas break. :)  Zoom

And so I found myself guilty of committing this crime. Lol. I saw this paper as I walked my way to my Spanish class and decided to take a picture of it ‘cause I just can’t deny that I am soooo ready to leave school for the Christmas break. :) 


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I shouldn’t be doing this

because I still have to write my book review on One Minute Manager which is due tomorrow- 8AM and I haven’t started anything yet. Guess who’s slacking off as always? Haha. I’m not really in the right mood to do something school related yet. :( When did I ever get in the mood, anyway? Lol. All I can think of is Christmaaaaas! Teehee. I’ve only got 6 days of school until break and I can’t wait to pump up the most awaited holiday season. Who else is excited for Christmas??? :D

HIGHLIGHT OF THE DAY:

* Streetfood-trippin’: I missed eating street food. Haven’t done this for a while until we walked the stretch of Katipunan and saw scores of street food stands. Ate 8 pcs of Bopis, 1 Calamari and 1 Gulaman. *BBUUUUURRRRP* Oooh. So fuuuulllll I almost didn’t feel my stomach. :D


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A badjao experience…

made me realize, we should all be open for CHANGE.

It is irrefutable that poverty is still increasing drastically over the years. We start to blame the government about being so corrupt and stashing the money away from the people to store it in their own money vaults but never has it occured to us that blaming does not change anything for the better. It just makes chaos to surface. What we need is not to pinpoint anyone but take one step forward and do what is needed to do- change.

I have had a lot of unforgettable memories with the poor. Some, I can say are remarkably life changing experiences and some are rather haunting. Well, what I’ll share is the haunting one. This happened to me just a few days ago: I was on the jeepney when 2 street kids, whom they call themselves Badjao came to me and gave me an envelope. After distributing them to every passenger, they knelt and started doing some hand gestures which I believe is an ethnic dance. After a few moments, the girl stopped and went on to collect the envelopes. Enraged upon seeing no one cared about giving her even just a penny, she showed off an infuriated face and snatched the envelopes angrily as if the envelopes would soon tear apart. She stood in front of me, stepped on my foot and mouthed some words which I did not understand at all (I just let it go and didn’t react ‘cause I don’t want to make a scene). After projecting her anger on me, she walked off and spanked a girl’s arm and shouted as she walked herself out of the jeepney, “Putangina niyo, magpapasko na pero napakasasama ng ugali niyo!”.

Of course, I was like “Grabe ha. Ikaw na nanghihingi, ikaw pa magagalit.” The experience was utterly mind-boggling. I do get her point. I know she felt really bad ‘cause she’s been doing this all her life to buy some food for herself or family but whenever there are street children coming up to me and begging for some coins, the initial thing I would think of is give them money because I know life is not treating them well as compared to me, but there’s always this thought that clouds my mind which say never buy their reasons or give in to their situations.

Yes, they are not some people who have educational background but the best thing to do is make them feel motivated to step on the plate and make changes for themselves. True it is that what they are going through is like a disaster every single day but what I have realized is that we could not just let them learn how to always depend on people, they should also learn how to earn for themselves. Same thing with us depending on the government, we can not just rely on them to do the change.

We know how far-fetched idea it is hence I believe that change must come from within. First, we must be willing to change, act and be an agent of change. This might not happen right away and the results might not come out immediately but what is important is, we are acting on it, we are making a headstart, and we are doing it all together with the love for God and for the people.

NAKS MAY GANON! Haha! But seriously, totoo lahat ng sinabi ko. :)) 


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I’m so happy my bangs are growiiiiing back to normaaaaallll! I know, I’ve been saying “Promise, di na talaga ko magbabangs” ever since I had it cut for the first time but now, I promise I won’t cut it anymore: Full bangs NO MOOOORE for me. No joke. Just take my word for this ‘cause this time, it’s going to be for REAL. Yes, I’m putting a stress on the word REAL, ‘cause I’m sooooo certain I won’t do it ever again. PINKY PROMISE!!! I swear to the world, if I break this promise, I’ll break my pinky. :))) PS: Forgive my picture if it creeps/creeped you out. Hrrhrr.

I’m so happy my bangs are growiiiiing back to normaaaaallll! I know, I’ve been saying “Promise, di na talaga ko magbabangs” ever since I had it cut for the first time but now, I promise I won’t cut it anymore: Full bangs NO MOOOORE for me. No joke.

Just take my word for this ‘cause this time, it’s going to be for REAL. Yes, I’m putting a stress on the word REAL, ‘cause I’m sooooo certain I won’t do it ever again. PINKY PROMISE!!! I swear to the world, if I break this promise, I’ll break my pinky. :)))

PS: Forgive my picture if it creeps/creeped you out. Hrrhrr.


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August 7, 2010, Saturday Me with my older sister, Bess. :) My ate begged me not post our full body pictures together because…oh, let’s not dwell on that…I hate stating the obvious. Kidding! Haha! Good thing she doesn’t have net in the province. AAAANNNND she doesn’t have tumblr therefore she wouldn’t know I posted this not unless someone tells her. KAPOW! :))  I can already tell luck’s on my side ‘cause my friends wouldn’t tell her, riiiight? HAHAHAHAHA! I love her not only because she has always been there for me as a sister, but also as a bestfriend. We may have or had misunderstandings before, but one thing’s for sure, we will never let anything ruin our bond as sisters/bestfriends. Though this is quite hard to believe but I’m going to say this once, in case you come across this, I want you to know that you are one of the people I always look up to. You serve as my pin up because you can make clear decisions and you know how to come up with something out of nothing. You know how to make good things come out of bad situations. You may not be sure of which path to take in life but you sure know how to dream big and achieve it. And lastly, I love you and I love the way you love me. I hope, maybe not now but someday, you will be able to read this. HAHA! Pag ngayon kasi, baka magalit ka. :)))))) I LOVE YOU ATE! :D Zoom

August 7, 2010, Saturday


Me with my older sister, Bess. :)


My ate begged me not post our full body pictures together because…oh, let’s not dwell on that…I hate stating the obvious. Kidding! Haha! Good thing she doesn’t have net in the province. AAAANNNND she doesn’t have tumblr therefore she wouldn’t know I posted this not unless someone tells her. KAPOW! :))  I can already tell luck’s on my side ‘cause my friends wouldn’t tell her, riiiight? HAHAHAHAHA!

I love her not only because she has always been there for me as a sister, but also as a bestfriend. We may have or had misunderstandings before, but one thing’s for sure, we will never let anything ruin our bond as sisters/bestfriends.

Though this is quite hard to believe but I’m going to say this once, in case you come across this, I want you to know that you are one of the people I always look up to. You serve as my pin up because you can make clear decisions and you know how to come up with something out of nothing. You know how to make good things come out of bad situations. You may not be sure of which path to take in life but you sure know how to dream big and achieve it. And lastly, I love you and I love the way you love me.

I hope, maybe not now but someday, you will be able to read this. HAHA! Pag ngayon kasi, baka magalit ka. :))))))

I LOVE YOU ATE! :D


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August 7, 2010, Saturday Stage fright. I’m afraid of the spotlight until I knew how it feels to be applauded by such a big crowd. IT WAS GRAWESOME- ONE OF THE BEST FEELINGS IN THE WORLD!!! Haha!  So, last saturday I went to my cousin’s 18th birthday party and was yeah, required to speak in front of nearly 200 hundred guests. And to tell you, I was the most under dressed,simplest looking person present at the party. Well, you couldn’t blame me that I only had a handful of time, could you? Yaaaay. But it’s k, I always like to look simple no matter how big the event is. Sans make up doesn’t bother me at all. :) I’m a Communication Arts student and it’s so ironic that my confidence hasn’t bloomed for me yet. Having low self esteem, imagine how anxious I was as the program moved forward. I felt like a thousand of dancing butterflies had taken residence inside my stomach. The anxiety was driving me crazy. It was killing me. I was literally shrinking….thinking of possible ways to stop the time or flash it forward so the night would just end.  Apparently, I was wishing for the impossible. The moment I heard my name being called, the adrenaline came rushing. Golly goodness, let’s get this over with! I stood up thinking “just take this with a grain of salt Biancaaaa!!!”. Just do it quickly. walk walk walk.   I walked towards the girl who handed me the microphone and quickly started my speech with the usual “Happy Birthday Ailyn” then was followed by what did I just sayyyyy??? “Thank you pala kasi pinagsalita mo si papa kanina kasi sabi niya you’re in the right age to have a boyfriend na, it just made me think, siguro there’s something behind that message…I’m a year older than you and siguro it’s papa’s way of saying “sige, pwede ka na magkaboyfriend”. I didn’t know what I was saying until the crowd snapped me out of my fuckery clapping. laughing. clapping. laughing. Shiiit. Guess who’s embarrassed? :)) Though I just made a shit out of me in front of those people, atleast for seconds I brought entertainment to them so, I guess,no regrets? HAHAHAHA! Pero nakakahiya. I was blushing like a tomato as I walked my way back to my seat. :))) Zoom

August 7, 2010, Saturday

Stage fright. I’m afraid of the spotlight until I knew how it feels to be applauded by such a big crowd. IT WAS GRAWESOME- ONE OF THE BEST FEELINGS IN THE WORLD!!! Haha! 

So, last saturday I went to my cousin’s 18th birthday party and was yeah, required to speak in front of nearly 200 hundred guests. And to tell you, I was the most under dressed,simplest looking person present at the party. Well, you couldn’t blame me that I only had a handful of time, could you? Yaaaay. But it’s k, I always like to look simple no matter how big the event is. Sans make up doesn’t bother me at all. :)

I’m a Communication Arts student and it’s so ironic that my confidence hasn’t bloomed for me yet. Having low self esteem, imagine how anxious I was as the program moved forward. I felt like a thousand of dancing butterflies had taken residence inside my stomach. The anxiety was driving me crazy. It was killing me. I was literally shrinking….thinking of possible ways to stop the time or flash it forward so the night would just end. 

Apparently, I was wishing for the impossible. The moment I heard my name being called, the adrenaline came rushing. Golly goodness, let’s get this over with! I stood up thinking “just take this with a grain of salt Biancaaaa!!!”. Just do it quickly. walk walk walk. 

 I walked towards the girl who handed me the microphone and quickly started my speech with the usual “Happy Birthday Ailyn” then was followed by what did I just sayyyyy??? “Thank you pala kasi pinagsalita mo si papa kanina kasi sabi niya you’re in the right age to have a boyfriend na, it just made me think, siguro there’s something behind that message…I’m a year older than you and siguro it’s papa’s way of saying “sige, pwede ka na magkaboyfriend”. I didn’t know what I was saying until the crowd snapped me out of my fuckery clapping. laughing. clapping. laughing. Shiiit. Guess who’s embarrassed? :)) Though I just made a shit out of me in front of those people, atleast for seconds I brought entertainment to them so, I guess,no regrets? HAHAHAHA! Pero nakakahiya. I was blushing like a tomato as I walked my way back to my seat. :)))


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August 7, 2010, Saturday Me with my OSM Chua cousins @ Ailyn’s debut. I admit I rant a lot about the intricacies of being one of the Chuas and I know I may have said that my Chua relatives are the most wicked people you’ll ever meet or you wouldn’t want to meet eveeeer in your life countless times but these girls…gah. Different story. I always hope and pray that our generation will be better and different from the generation before us. (April Toreja, Bianca Chua (ME), Alexandra Chua & Angelica Chua) Zoom

August 7, 2010, Saturday

Me with my OSM Chua cousins @ Ailyn’s debut. I admit I rant a lot about the intricacies of being one of the Chuas and I know I may have said that my Chua relatives are the most wicked people you’ll ever meet or you wouldn’t want to meet eveeeer in your life countless times but these girls…gah. Different story. I always hope and pray that our generation will be better and different from the generation before us. (April Toreja, Bianca Chua (ME), Alexandra Chua & Angelica Chua)


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